Nostalgia // [no-stal-juh, -jee-uh, nuh-] : It’s delicate, but potent. In greek, “nostalgia” literally means “the pain from an old wound”. It’s a twinge in your heart far more powerful than memory alone- a feeling of a place where we ache to go again.
I loved this definition from the second I read it; Pinterest always has a way of knowing what’s up. Dictionary.com might tell you a completely different meaning to the world nostalgia but I don’t find it quite as relatable… although shoutout to them for providing me with the breakdown of the word pronunciation. A sense of nostalgia has recently overwhelmed my mind as the idea of senior year sets in and begins to be in full swing. Did I just say senior year? Yeah, I can’t believe it either… time has a crazy way of slipping through our fingers.
For a few months now I’ve been caught up by my thoughts and day dreams of what to expect for my final year of college; thus far, each year of college has been so different. From freshman year to junior year I’ve learned about people, my topic of study, and myself. It’s funny to look back on my years in school because I’ve realized that my predictions about each of these years have all been incredibly wrong. My entire life I have been a person who finds a deeper meaning to everything which has resulted in nostalgia hitting me full force no matter the year in school. But, now that senior year is here, I can’t help but see how nostalgia is affecting everyone, not just myself. We’re seniors and everyone is also questioning what this year will have in store; there’s a trending topic circling around asking ‘what is really important in life?’.
I’ll tell you this: I can’t answer that question for you. You, yourself will have a different idea of what is important in life and how you want to go about making those things a priority. However, as I sat in my room today, I couldn’t help but think that maybe nostalgia is both a blessing and a curse for everyone. Look at it this way… in one sense, nostalgia is great; it’s a reminder of happy memories such as battles fought and won, life lessons, dreams, people, etc. But in another sense, nostalgia can have this power where it ingrains the idea that nothing will ever be as great as it once was; that’s where nostalgia has me trapped
With that being said, I have decided that this year, senior year, I will spend my time focusing on the present. I think I speak for more than just myself when I say that I don’t spend enough time just living. I’ve started my senior year without any expectations and for the first time in college, I feel as if I can just enjoy the time that I’ve been given. My mindset is to have positive vibes only; I’ve promised myself to let happiness be my priority rather than trying to predict my future based on my experiences in previous years. I want to only invest in things and people that make me happy, work hard to create the senior line of my dreams, stop stressing about the little things, relax, find peace, be healthy, learn a sense of balance, adventure, have spontaneous moments, and LIVE. These are the things that I have found to truly hold importance to me.
Here’s a little look into my first week of senior year...
A weekend DIY project, revamping an old denim jacket.
My room finally starting to come together.
Serenades with my Pi Phi family (they're the cutest).
Found on a bar wall... one of the greatest movies ever.
Thanks for taking the time to read this post... I hope you have a little insight as to what I'll be doing my senior year!